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Problems and profound thoughts
just finished reading quite a few people's blogs(haven't done this for a really long time). most of them had quite a few problems and they were just throwing all their emotions out. some had profound thoughts. one of them was me cousin Amanda's blog:
Empty hands held high
such small sacrifice
if not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight
How true. I often find myself singing empty words even in God's sanctuary, words that i would not be able to live out in my life. Even though i'm not an only-Sunday christian, there are still many areas of my life that haven't been centred on God. Worship every Sunday morning or Saturday evenings can get emotional. But sometimes it's only the emotions and after worship, it's back to the same old me. Unchanged. Then there are those times when i sing words like, "say the Word, and i will sing for You, over oceans deep i will follow." Just last sunday, i kept asking myself whether i would really practise what i sing, but i knew i wouldn't. I didn't sing that Sunday morning. I didn't even sing most of the songs that were proclaiming my love for Christ. And sometimes i even wish those type of songs wouldn't exist in our worship service. Like seriously, who was I trying to kidd? will I really "simply live" for Jesus? i know i don't. I live for my friends, my family, my future career, my own interests etc that sometimes center so much more on myself than on Him.
But that's what God demands of us. And then i realised that i've fallen short of the glory of God, of His expectation. He is worthy of so much more than we normally give to Him. We have short changed Him so severely time and again. But because He Loves us, He paid the price for what we never did-- to live a life of true worship to Him. It's "only by grace" that we can enter in His Presence, which the CBSI session nicely closed up my day of doubting if i'll ever measure up to His standard. The truth is, we can never, but God provided the way-- by grace, through faith in Jesus Christ.
true enough. when i read this my mindset changed. when we worship God, do we really mean it? all this while, in my life, i sing, wanting to do what the song say, but most of the time to no avail. i merely forget the meaning of the song and never applied it to my life. now, i realize, i was doing things with my own understanding, strength and mind. but God still helped me and did so many things for me and by grace i accomplished what i didn't know i could do. however, i still felt that there was something missing in my life but i didn't know what, but now i found it: simply rely on God and not ure own strength. imagine, if we ENTIRELY rely on Him, love Him, worship Him like we never did before, how much more would we achieve? the arm of God is never too short to bless us with much more than we ask from him...
in Christ alone
i place my trust
and find my glory
in the power of the Cross
in every victory
let it be said of me
my source of strength
my source of hope
is Christ alone
hellos hellos!
back to school with no MC. oh well, wish not granted.bio is getiing cooler every lesson. our prac on fri was soo fun. while waiting for the experiment results, we were carving the remaining potato for fun :). mrs chang took an hour to explain a math matrix sum. nearly slept in chinese class as lao shi didn't come and mr karib was not in class for any case, however the class was very noisy lah. went to cell as usual. my group will be having a new mentor soon but we dun know who she is (in person). waited for mum and dad for abt an hour. learnt the intro of open up the gates from shane and picked it up real fast. i thought glen and him the always and forever intro. then for most of the time, me bro had the guitar and i nearly slept again. so tired man.
guides today was normal with singing practices, but with a lil interesting twist. mrs teo decided to promote some people because of the recruits. and i got promoted as the PL (patrol leader) of ixora. the other two jasminians belle and jillian moved too to become the patrol seconds of other patrols. proud of u guys!! we all should go out one day to celebrate. and our old PL, please dun cry!! we'll still be jasminians in our hearts ya?? crying sessions with other guides letting their patrol members go to become PLs, PSs. see, that shows how bonded we are as a guide family :)
tooooooooodles!!
just came back from a very tiring camp. resting right now 'cause tmr still got to go to school. i so want an MC. i'm losing my voice due to over-shouting so i sound really funny. arggh. anyway, here are the happenings: highlights of red and orange in the black sky.
day 1- monday 22 jan
went to school at usual time with a big and heavy harversack. yup, we trekked all the way to the campsite, it was from the lagoon food court all the way to next to the sea sports centre, abt 5km! thank goodness i packed everything into one bag.
went there to find that our dorms were long houses and we had to sleep on the hard wooden floor. our first activity was zip-line(AKA flying fox) and abseiling. abseiling was sooo fun!! but a lil scary in the first part but eventually u can't look down 'cause u'll be busy looking at ure feet. hahas. didn't manage to try the flying fox 'cause there was not enough time.
shower time was only 1 hour and the instructors squeezed 3 people into one cubicle. so havoc. sleeping wasn't that peaceful. jets keep flying over the campsite with a lot of noise. i think when i get out of here my hearing will be affected.
day 2- tues 23 jan
general stations in the morning. then kayaking!! partnered sophie. ended up paddling all the time 'cause she was paddling the wrong way which slowed us down a lot. we sorta did stunts like having the back person to stand up with all the kayaks connected. and getting the to people at hte end of the line to switch boats. after that i turned to Rudolf the Red Nosed Reindeer. haha. did raft making next. didn't manage to put it on the water because our knots kept coming out. the ropes were synthetic(never worked with them before) and short. i can't even tie a proper square lash. arggh.
after lunch prep for camp fire. made 2 cheers namely the 'dynamite' and 'fergie' cheer. did the banana song for item. it was very cute with the formation, esp when melsa gan and melsa yeo did the serve banana part. had to do area cleaning, missing our first aid, because somebody left her camp booklet lying around. i dun blame her lah because first aid is really boring and we got more time to practice. went rock climbing after that. had to switch pants with chloe because i was in 3/4 pants and they didn't allow it. but in the end didn't do it because there was not enough time :( oh ya, our class beat all the other classes with 19 reaching the top! go 3/6!!
campfire was comical. the teachers came to visit us and sat in for the campfire to find that they will have to perform. the male teachers were saboed to do the macho frog thing with the macho actions. sadly, i cannot put the picture here or else i'll be dead! the other female teachers (including mrs sng!!!)also did the sexy frog thing which involved the hips. haha. we did our items which were not really well prepared. funny anyway. i was doing photog duty when i saw a phenomenal sight.(below) it almost looked as if the world was going to end.
day 3- today
home sweet home!! went home had a l o n g l o n g bath and went to sleep!! my sore throat was bad.
will be back soon. bye!
hello! i'm back!
wed
having a really busy week. just had a chinese compo test and i think i really sucked. because the words i used was VERY simple. i'm definitely screwed.
thur
orchid hybridnisation again. got new sec 2s joining. went to the laminar flow room to find OUR PAST YEAR'S WORK ALL GONE! :'( :'( cloning process with the buds are contaminated because the shaker died on us during the hols. subcultured colin powell orchid was ALL contaminated. what was left was more stuff to subculture and media. anyway, did cloning again. a sec 2 was attached to each pair to watch us and try. we got the clones on the shaker and did some subculturing with the media we had. things left to do: 1) make more media, 2)potting of some mature-enough plants, 3) monitor the cloning, 4)pray that the shaker will not die on us again.
fri
got back my chinese compo with absolute shock! yup, i topped my chinese class with a SHOCKING 20/25. never got this mark before. i was gaping when i heard it. thank the LORD for it. went to cell as usual. had a lil laughing session with my group. i soo needed it.
today
guides as usu. was singing the whole time so got really dehydrated. came home did most of my homework. going to have sec 3 adventure camp from mon to wed next week. really looking forward to it.
you, yes you. u know who i'm talking about. i know u like me, but the big problem is that i dun like u. dun bother trying to tell me all your stuff because i really can't be bothered. dun say all those sweet words to me, it is no use. i ain't gonna fall for you EVER. u trying to prove to me what your character is has not moved my heart. you have only proved to me that you are only a BOY. stop waiting, thinking and assuming that i am the one for you 'cause it is CLEARLY not. you are seriously wasting your time. from what you have typed, said, expressed, i have therefore come to a conclusion that you have a very immature thinking. the way u phrase words make it so obvious. u didn't have to tell me for me to figure it out. u think ure ready to get a relationship going, but i think u have picked the wrong girl from the start. you know what i'm taking about. i shall not repeat myself so, please take my piece of advice: GET REAL, GET A LIFE!
i'm sorry people, haven't been blogging for a long long time. dun really have time these days. busy with new 3/6 life. yeah yeah, many people have a sterotyped view that 3/6ers are just plain nerds, but they are just wrong. the people there are actually nice! anyway, here's what happened:
mon to fri
lessons as usual. PE is killing me. strained a muscle while 'working' my arms out. it seemed more like torture to me then working as my arms are nothing but flab! all the three sciences are actually ok lah. but boy! it's draining my energy alright. lit is interesting. geog is reasonable. ss is boring! english lessons are fun! chinese is almost like B syllabus, that's bad. maths is cool! i love matrices.
i had photography and writing duty for the beginning of term mass. took pics with the lovely, big, oh-so-cool SLR. at least i was taking photos instead of stoning with the school.
on wed, sheryl asked me to play keyboard in cell, arggh! frantic to practice 'cause i only have 2 days! prayed really hard 'cause i'm not really pro yet and i want to give the Lord the best. then on fri God gave me a word saying that he will teach me what to do. soo releaved to hear it. evermore was pretty tricky. with 2 guitar and a keyboard, it was really hard to coordinate. then when it started, they switched off the lights! had a little seeing problem.when i was playing, God really took over. i just allowed God to move those lil fingers of mine. i thought i would have problem with the fast songs, but i didn't somehow :). playing was really at ease.
Sat
guides with recruits coming! abt 20 turned up, with gan cheong recruits coming at 0730 when they had to come at 0800. did a lot of singing for the gala night for SGGA thing.the song planting rice is so havoc. can't sing the counter melody. will be singin the same songs every week until march. how sian can that get?
Sun
on CK duty today. was down with a bad flu, but still went to help out. i have been drained out from the whole week and i still have many weeks of school to come! GOD, please give me STRENGTH!! went for the thanksgiving lunch thing. caught up with some people like yvonne and meiying and a lot more. stage hands won one of the BC star awards! yay.
school tmr and i haven't finish my homework! oh man.
today
busy again and will be busy forever. stayed back today for the banner making and ended at 5 +. finally got those MP3s from andrea which consisted of Gackt, Miyavi, fergie etc, etc... some really nice songs.
i dunno when i'll be blogging next, anyway, bye!
today was fun!!!
went to guides 7 am in full uniform. did final checks on the playground's safety and started to play with it. we also cooked bell chicken as one of the exhibits. set up a craft corner also for one of the exhibits. was doing Can craft too. did 2 pretty butterflies and a flower. was also running around. here's the highlight of the day: teo hsin ching or should i say ms teacher teo broke the smaller swing while swinging on it too hard. thank goodness we brought it up in time before the sec 1's saw it. phew! if not they would not dare to sit on the swing. parents were impressed with what we did. got about 10 girls signing up. wonder whether more will come. went to do the banner for the banner making competition for thinking day. haven't done painting for a very long time. was sooo fun. came back home and continue reading to kill a mocking bird (my core lit text). i have to finish it by monday which is crazy because i am not even halfway through the text! oh man.
till next time...bye!
hi people! school has started more things to be busy about. yes, i won't be blogging very often now. now, where was i? oh ya
jan 1
did something that i would not be able to do when school reopens: SLACKING. yea, triple science, double math and double humans which total up to 9 subjects. went to my parents cluster event. ended up taking care of kids and trying to finish up my homework. went back home to slack.
new year resolution:
-work to learn lead guitar
-be more hardworking
-dun slack anymore
-stop thinking that i have time to finish my homework when i don't
-get closer to GOD
-pray more
-Give more time to GOD
-cut down on some things in school to make time 4 GOD
-try to love chinese
jan 2
went to plaza sing to shop for house stuff. yes, my house renovation is finally done! this was the 3rd time i went to plaza sing across the 2 weeks. did all my homework except one chinese newspaper cutting that i can't do. arggh! help!!!
jan 3
school reopens. back to the usual routine of waking up at 6am. went to school and met all those people whom i haven't chatted for a long time since end of term last year. sat in the hall for 2 hrs for breifing from the teachers. went to class to find a lot of my friends in 3ohsix! yay! got ms chew again for a form teacher. she cut her hair short!! omg, she looked soo goth with the heavy short haircut, grey eyeshadow, black eyeliner and clothes. thank goodness she didn't wear black lipstick or else i'll seriously laugh. was told by ms chai that publications won't be a CCA anymore because they can't find a teacher to head it and there only a few members in it after the sec 4s and 5s graduate :(((((( very very very sad. however they still need our services so it will be counted as school service and CIO points.
jan 4
here's the list of teachers that will be teaching me (those that i so far know)
english-ms chai.
highly humorous (unfortunately, that humor is sometimes hidden deeply in the joke and u don't even know that she is joking!). speaks near perfect english.
SS- mrs kauthar
cute, funny. good? i dun know yet. mrs koh took most of her period to confirm some things with us.
physics- ms chew
serious, high expectations of her form class. getting married to some unknown dude that is not in school in dec (thank goodness, 'cause all the male teachers are all not really compatable with her). she's in the disciplinary department so i have to watch out with my long fringe and low belt. surprisingly i haven't got caught yet.
biology- ms chua
ms chua is a good biology teacher(so my seniors say). a very nice person and my orchid hybridnization teacher. i just learnt today that there are cells without a nucleus, also known as prokaryotes. COOL.
chemistry- mdm zakia
lab lesson today. just learnt to use a pipette. we are the first batch of students to take the school practical assesment (SPA, how lovely, we get one hour of it every week) mrs koh is helping her with the SPA lessons so i think i'm going to hear her 'beautiful' voice every week.
E and A maths- ms chang
goood math teacher. she goes at my pace when i got the math ball rolling in my head. but for now, she goes too fast 'cause i have not warmed up yet. haha.
PE- mr lee
PE first thing in the morning, arggh!! haven't been excercising for a very long time. running 3 rounds around the school is tiring. mr lee talks nothing except about how to keep our bodies fit (so far thats the only topic he talks about to the class) was never thought by him before so i dun know.
school ended at 2.15pm and i had to stay back for guides to set up the playground. yes! we make them with thick spars and natural hemp rope. tied my tripod really tightly only to get a wee bit of blister on my hand. we do have to tie that tight for safety sake. didn't manage to set it up entirely because of the rain.
today
more lessons and more teachers to know.
literature- either The Captain or mrs ng
somehow this year a lot of people are taking core lit. so there are a shortage of teachers. mrs ng is very nice, and she is very good too. i think i dun need to describe The Captain, kindly refer to other posts in this blog regarding her. i hope i get thought by mrs ng this year again.
chinese- ms teh
the teachers rearranged us again and split all of us up between the classes. the best was 3C (excluding the higher chinese people) the worst was 3G. i dropped from 2D to 3F. oh dear. thank goodness i wasn't the only person from 3/6 who went there. ms teh is nice, she at least speak to us in a bit of english so i do understand what she is saying, unlike my previous teacher who spoke chinese whole time i couldn't understand half of what she was saying.
sec 1 CCA fair for some CCAs (guides is tmr) i was on photography duty, so i got to play with the SLR again. soo cool. nothing much to take there.
tmr, CCA fair in guide u, promoting guides. toodles!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
may GOD bless u this new year (to whoever is reading this)
Rachel tan, 14, part of BC, student of KC
* Loves *God :), people, food, music, maths,lit, science, photojounalism
* Hates *i shall not hurt anybody here.
* Wishlist *draw closer to God, TELL THE WORLD ABOUT HIS LOVE, new 8 mega-pixel digital SLR cam, learn electric guitar and acoustic guitar properly
* Friends *
adelina |
cheryl lay |
ariane |
elaine |
ms tan! |
TWOfive |
sylvia |
grace song |
chloe |
vrinda
|
amanda |
deserie |
chimene |
sandra |
annabelle |
amanda |
rina |
suzanne
* Pubbers Club Gals *
Seraphina (: |
sophie chewmouse |
sheriLION
* KCGG *
delicia |
intan |
KCGG |
shu hui |
stacey |
kai lin |
deborah |
felly |
virina |
heda |
ting xin |
zheng fang |
annabel |
angela |
yu hui
* Church People *
charmaine |
jasmine |
jia lin |
doraline |
karen |
tina |
kun |
crystal |
ashley |
sheryl |
mabel |
sheena |
dione |
aron |
liyun
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ultimate guitar.com |
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* move ure fingers *
* video of the week *
funny!!
* music of the week *
nice song
* sing along *
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
* bible verse of the week *
Hebrews 12:11
No discipline seems pleasent at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.
