Problems and profound thoughts
just finished reading quite a few people's blogs(haven't done this for a really long time). most of them had quite a few problems and they were just throwing all their emotions out. some had profound thoughts. one of them was me cousin Amanda's blog:
Empty hands held high
such small sacrifice
if not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight
How true. I often find myself singing empty words even in God's sanctuary, words that i would not be able to live out in my life. Even though i'm not an only-Sunday christian, there are still many areas of my life that haven't been centred on God. Worship every Sunday morning or Saturday evenings can get emotional. But sometimes it's only the emotions and after worship, it's back to the same old me. Unchanged. Then there are those times when i sing words like, "say the Word, and i will sing for You, over oceans deep i will follow." Just last sunday, i kept asking myself whether i would really practise what i sing, but i knew i wouldn't. I didn't sing that Sunday morning. I didn't even sing most of the songs that were proclaiming my love for Christ. And sometimes i even wish those type of songs wouldn't exist in our worship service. Like seriously, who was I trying to kidd? will I really "simply live" for Jesus? i know i don't. I live for my friends, my family, my future career, my own interests etc that sometimes center so much more on myself than on Him.
But that's what God demands of us. And then i realised that i've fallen short of the glory of God, of His expectation. He is worthy of so much more than we normally give to Him. We have short changed Him so severely time and again. But because He Loves us, He paid the price for what we never did-- to live a life of true worship to Him. It's "only by grace" that we can enter in His Presence, which the CBSI session nicely closed up my day of doubting if i'll ever measure up to His standard. The truth is, we can never, but God provided the way-- by grace, through faith in Jesus Christ.
true enough. when i read this my mindset changed. when we worship God, do we really mean it? all this while, in my life, i sing, wanting to do what the song say, but most of the time to no avail. i merely forget the meaning of the song and never applied it to my life. now, i realize, i was doing things with my own understanding, strength and mind. but God still helped me and did so many things for me and by grace i accomplished what i didn't know i could do. however, i still felt that there was something missing in my life but i didn't know what, but now i found it: simply rely on God and not ure own strength. imagine, if we ENTIRELY rely on Him, love Him, worship Him like we never did before, how much more would we achieve? the arm of God is never too short to bless us with much more than we ask from him...
in Christ alone
i place my trust
and find my glory
in the power of the Cross
in every victory
let it be said of me
my source of strength
my source of hope
is Christ alone
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